My grandfather passed away on FRI @ 7pm. I had a show to do about 3 hours later. I wasn't sure if I would be able to do it mentally and even physically.
I decided to do the show for him! This show was for him! I wish someone had recorded it, because it was my best performance to date!
I believe that his spirit was there to be there for me and for me to become a stronger and better artist.
His death made me a realize a lot of things about myself! How I can be mean at times. Or edgy...
Now I have a different outlook and want to become a better person.
I have become so much closer to my family in the past year.
I was always wonderin why god wanted me to stay in LA this past year. I thought it was my karma, cause here I was not being able to do anything for 2 months and walklin around with this huge ugly scar on my arm! And movin back with my momma... yeah u know how that can be.
I know now that I was here to bless LA, LBC, and the OC with my dope music! I stayed to become a better artist. If you heard my stuff before I lived here compared to now, I have grown so much! Shit on fri someone said I was like the Female Chuck D. I don't know how true that is, but to hear that was dope! I also know that I was here because I needed to be here with my family. My mom was out of work for a long time. My bros are growing up and needed someone like me to motivate them to be involved in the arts, Now 1 bro is a bboy and the other a drummer! I also needed to be here for this event that no one expected to happen right now. I have to be strong for everyone else that can't. I had my moments, but now I am good and here to be a crying shoulder.
I just want to thank all the people that have truely been there for me this past year. When I felt I had no one you were there. Even if we just kiked it one night and blazed some trees and had a beer. You were there for me in a tough time so thanks!
much luv~ Patricia aka Poetic S.
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